love lost.

It's been a while. I feel different than I used to. I'm happy. With myself, that is. And that's where I wanted to be. Well I'm here now, and I feel great. But will that become a problem? I'm so comfortable with myself that it seems I'm not letting many people in. Relationships. What a complicated element in life. The love one mostly. Love left my life almost a year ago, and I haven't seen it since. The traditional, romantic love, that is. I love a lot of things, but a male companion is not one of them. I would like to start that up again. I used to hate not having one, but that's definitely changed. But where is this man? I don't think he's close. There have been potentials, but there's always something about these guys that doesn't feel quite right. Even the smallest thing can ruin it all. I can't really reference an example, because there's a sure possibility that my mind's creating these quirks. It's probably a combination of my mind and a slight incompatibility. So I think about this, and conclude every time that there's no real action I can take to solve this. Maybe I don't see it as a problem? No, I don't. And I always figure that my ideal man will come around eventually. If not, then, I guess I'm just stuck with myself, which doesn't seem so bad.